We made it!!! First year of blogging, down. When I started this blog of mine last year after years of contemplation I had no idea where it would bring me. I had big dreams, and lots of them. I had big fears too, almost as big as the dream which is what kept me from chasing it for so long. I had just graduated high school, was feeling a little lost and looking for a distraction from some of the internal battles I was facing. Just 6 months earlier I had left my big school that I had felt so alone in, and finished the year and a half I had left in a semester. A recent breakup which was incredibly devastating at the time, added to my confusion but left me with nothing to lose.
Fears aside, I leapt into the blogging world, arms wide open. I had been following tons of blogs for years, yet I knew nothing about what it took to create my own. So I scoured the internet for any information I could find, listened to podcasts and sorted through craigslist ads for the best camera I could find (and afford). I read countless articles on SEO and CSS, which all sounded like gibberish at the time (and still do, quite frankly), trying my best to soak in all the information, and just SO eager. Within a week or two of making the decision, I was practically up and running. I’m sure that my family thought it was a whim, because of how quickly it all happened, but I was determined.
Even though I didn’t really have a direction in mind for my blog, the one thing I was sure about is that I wanted it to be a space where I was able to share my thoughts, unfiltered, without fear. As a natural people pleaser, this was something I had majorly struggled with in the past and sometimes still do. I felt unnerved sharing any feelings that hinted that I was anything but happy and thriving. And I never really got over that, before those feelings passed. But I can say with certainty that part of the reason why they did was because of this blog, and the positivity that it brings to my life.
Over this past year I have grown SO much. Those fears that I had, they did happen. And it wasn’t the end of the world (not even close). People have talked about my blog, laughed at me and probably much worse that I don’t even know about. Those negative opinions don’t matter to me, and they don’t affect me because I am so proud of how wonderfully beautiful this thing is that I created all by myself. My heart and soul, it’s all right here on this blog where I write to you each week. And I am truly grateful to have this platform in order to do so, and for the overwhelming support I’ve received. It will never fail to amaze me, and I will never stop being grateful no matter where this blog goes. I didn’t know what to expect at the beginning of this journey, but it is far better than I could have imagined.
So happy anniversary to us, babes. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for following along and supporting thus far, I am so excited for what the future has in store for us.. who’s ready for round two?!
PS. I was planning on sharing the shoot I’ve been working on for this week’s post, but decided to keep it a little more personal. Fear not, they will be up next week!
PSS. Here is a link to my first post ever if you (literally) want to see how far we’ve come. And laugh a little at my writing, hehe.